lol i totally forgot about that 30-day challenge fffff. i can never keep with those kinds of things; i’ve always ended up giving up halfway into doing something ahahahahahaha, which is a problem that i should probably change. i give up too easily on things. it’s not even that it might be hard or whatnot, once i lose interest, i can’t seem to keep doing anything. there’s no point for me once i’ve reached that stage. that’s how i am with relationships too; my connections with other people are only as good as i myself put into it. once i’ve reached a certain point, all trying stops and i just break away, and that relationship just cracks. like an egg, ahahahahaha.

anyway. little devilspawn sister found out the other day finally that we are not in fact full sisters, but only half. she took it pretty well, all things considered. usually, she’d start crying her eyes out when something doesn’t go to her liking. but she took this with barely-contained giggling. i wonder what that means. i wonder if she’s actually okay with this. maybe she’ll understand why i don’t have half the affection a normal person would have for his or her sibling. not that i hate her; i just. i’ve accepted her as my sibling. but. i don’t know, i think there’ll always be this part of me inside that just won’t accept the fact that she and i are blood-related when we only share the same mother. whatever.